“You had my mother give birth to me.You made me trust youwhile I was just a baby.I have leaned on you since the day I was born;you have been my God since my mother gave me birth.”(Ps. 22:9-10, NCV)
My aunt, my mother’s sister, sent me an old picture. In the picture was my mother holding a baby and standing next to her sister. I asked my aunt if it was me that my mother was holding, but my aunt wasn’t sure. I’d like to think it was me because the baby is holding on to my mom, grasping her shirt, but the baby is looking the other way. I want it to be me….
Of course, that picture brought back memories, some emotions, and yes, questions. Oh, how I wish my mother was still alive. I wish I could talk to her, get motherly advice, and have long conversations on the phone. I wish we could meet for lunch and dinner; my family would take frequent trips to grandma’s! I would watch my mother as she’d spend time with my children, her grandchildren.
My mother died when I was three. Therefore, I only remember a small glimpse of her and the things she did. I know she was very beautiful and a joy to be around. She was so beautiful! She had dark mocha skin, a gorgeous figure, and a smile that made everyone smile. I’m sure that her smile lit up the room and made a lasting impression on everyone. She was so beautiful!
I hear stories of how my mother would gather all the neighborhood children, along with her children, nieces and nephews. With a switch in the one hand, a bible in the other hand, she’d take us all to church. And man! Did she have a voice?! She had a voice like an angel! Boy, she could sing!! When she’d lead a sung, the Holy Spirit would have His way, using her voice to tear up the church! I wish I could hear her voice now or remember her sound. I know it must have been beautiful!
With her voice and her beautiful spirit, I know she was a blessing to others. Looking at that old picture brings back old memories, old emotions, and those same old questions. I have so many questions. I’ve heard people say, “Don’t you question God!” But I say, “If I can’t ask my Daddy, who knows all things, who can I ask?!
Even though I have my questions and even though I wish my mother could have lived to see me grow up to become a wife, a mother, and a godly woman, I know without a shadow of a doubt, all of this was part of God’s perfect plan. I know that my God’s plan is perfect and wise! His plan is not to harm His children, but His plan is to give us a future and a hope!
“Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God.” (Ps. 42:11, NKJV)
So, as I reminisce about my beautiful mother, I can be glad and rejoice in the Lord. I can be glad and rejoice because “…my hope is in the Lord. He gives me confidence that this world doesn’t know. He’s the Lord of creation and whatever the situation, I’m glad for my hope is in the Lord!” (Sing it Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir!)
Here’s a scripture passage that I have been clinging to for some time now. It has given me that push when I wanted to quit. May God’s Words bless you and give you confidence in the Him. May it remind all of us to keep our eyes on God!
“For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
(Jer. 29:11, NKJV)
My sisters, though our past may have been dark and gloomy, because of God, we have a future that’s bright and promising! Have a blessed Thursday!
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